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Aquila says:

A painfully honest account of one man’s conversion This is not a novel and not really an autobiography, but rather a first-hand account of one man’s journey from atheism to belief in God (Christianity came much later and is not covered in this book–for that, read his many religious works). I discovered this little gem while living in Scotland, at a time when I was neck-deep in the pit of atheism and feeling almost totally lost. I don’t know why I was moved to take it off the shelf and buy it, but it was to be only the first of Lewis’s books that I read. It’s still my favorite because its theme is so close to me.What makes Lewis’s book so remarkable is his unashamed honesty and willingness to shed all masks in the face of reality, no matter how unpleasant or frightening that reality may first seem. Lewis did not want to find God, and we feel with him that burning desire to run away once God has been discovered. The wonderful lightness and love that characterize many of Lewis’s later works are not found here. Instead we see his defenses against God shattered one by one as he follows an intellectual path to belief. He tries his best to argue his way out of it, fighting every step of the way and using all the trivial excuses that human beings use, but we feel God’s presence bearing down on him step by step like a great weight until he realizes that there is no escape. Lewis sees that it is indeed a burden at first if one has come to it honestly, because with it comes the realization that we are required to abandon ourselves and submit to God’s will in order to find eternal peace. This is not an easy road for a human being to follow — indeed, it is the most difficult thing in the world, and Lewis knew that very well. We feel with him the pain and weight that came when he realized that there IS a God: the account of his final days as an atheist is absolutely excruciating for a reader who has had the same experience.Lewis’s account of his spiritual journey shows that God can be discovered in the most unlikely places and in the most unlikely ways, no matter how hard we try to avoid Him. When we think we have trumped God, we find that He has in fact trumped us, always remaining well ahead of us on the path. Lewis’s account often reads like a great chess match between one man and God, but it remains familiar because it is a match that we play again and again. As always, Lewis’s honesty is disarming, his insight staggering, and his humor refreshing. I cannot recommend this book enough, but if you are looking for a biography of Lewis’s life, this will not provide it. For that I recommend George Sayer’s study, but the best way to find out who Lewis was is to read his books.